My suicide 'attempt' - True

I've overdosed, I can feel the pills inside
this is the beginning of my suicide
I'm starting to feel dizzy, its only been a short time
I can't believe it, I've done it
I am going to die

I can feel all the blood, and my throat really hurts
my breath isn't coming, when it does its short bursts
I can't believe I've done it
as my limbs go heavy and sag
I try to work it out, is there no going back?

I start to worry, and panic, and stress
what if it just f**ks my body
it'll all be a mess
as my head starts to throb,
I count the empty packet,
how many pills have passed my gob?

I wonder what the effect will be
if the they'll cause me to die painfully
I lie there guessing how quick it'll come
question if I want to do this, or have I been dumb?

and suddenly I think of the letter I wrote down
of my friends reading it all, I hear a crying sound
coming round I realise its me,
its like writing goodbyes to my friends has made me see
that theres so much more to come, whether good or bad
I can't be this selfish, I don't want them to be sad

I run to the toilet, stick my fingers down my throat
feeling retches from my stomach, see my meal all down the drain
but only a few f**king pills, so I try and throw up again
I continue until I'm empty, I've got nothing left to give
I lie on the floor and hope that I've thrown up enough pills to live

I don't care if I've done permanant damage, as long as I can tell my friends
that tonight they were my surviving thought
that tonight they were the reason I fought
especially one, miss shellymoo
that tonight I owe my life to my goodbye to you

~ Yeah this is true, please comment/rate it would mean so much to me ~