My worries

I'm worried now, my head still hurts
I'm worrying that my attempt might still work
My headache has to be down to the stress
but to be honest now, its a hopeful guess
I feel better now, not happy, still sad
but not suicidal, I'm alive and I'm glad
There are stabbing pains in my stomach
but I don't care, I've taken my life back
I'm not giving it up for anyone
the pills are in the toilet, I'm determined to move on
yet I'm still amazed I did it - swallowed the pills, downed the wine
even more surprised I made myself sick
and bl00dy he11 I'm shocked I'm fine!