Disappear

I follow the scent upon the ground
Just to take me away from here
Won’t you come and hold my hand?
Together we’ll disappear

My scarlet stained body is weaker now
As the pain inside grows stronger
The tears keep leaving their icy mark
And I can’t stand it any longer

For I know tonight, the faces of those
Will play on repeat, through my mind
And the memories will keep living on
Cos’ I can’t leave them behind

Scene after scene, I become so lost
In the fragmented drama of the past
The time has moved on and all is changed
But my mind still revisits the cast

Faces and smiles, distort into laughter
Smiling tears, all over the floor
And when I think, the past is asleep
I’m triggered into suffering more

Words and phrases, the hurt’s still intact
And every time the movie repeats
I am there….in that time again
Spilling my fears with every heartbeat

So take a look in the mirror tonight
Touch the face that you once knew
Stare into the *only* eyes
That can understand all you’ve been through

And I will sit and look right back
Into the distorted reflection
The face that you once loved the most
The body that suffered his ‘affection’

The hands that she once held so tight
The mind that plays the host
Still haunted by those memories
Those dreams that hurt the most

Each hour they come to swallow the light
Still burning from deep inside
But piece by piece, I’m slowly smothered
Like a flame just waiting to die

Thrown and scattered across the ocean
My hope’s ashes are laid to rest
Still poisoned with the heartache
Of falling from this crest

All is swept away with a silence
Like you, I crave my escape
Like you, I suffer and I bleed inside
A scar for every mistake

But life is a game I don’t know how to play
I need to be set free tonight
I promise it’s alright
Stay near, so near
Won’t you let go of my hand now?
And I’ll disappear
Just let me disappear

- The metaphorical use of the 'drama' and 'cast' is the only way i can really describe the memories so thats why i use it a lot x