You know what hurts me?
Realizing that when I wake up in the morning,
you're not going to be here.
Knowing that no matter how I scream your name
I don't get to touch you for 1,2, maybe 3 years.
Longing for your voice
And not being able to hear it.
Every time I think about it
It's like my heart is being hit.
Over and over again
Something I just want to get through is this.
I know you have a girlfriend,
I know this isn't right
But I know I'll be thinking of you
Until I fall asleep at night.
Thinking about you is making me cry
Without you it's like I will live but I'll die.
I wonder
"Is he thinking of me now?"
I really want to see you
But I know there is no way, no how.
I force myself to shove you from my mind,
I know that you are hers, not mine.
And when my heart starts to rise,
And it lets the feelings show,
I hammer it down recklessly,
Desperately tell it "NO!"
I can't stop wanting,
Can't stop longing,
Can't stop loving.
I want him but I don't
If he asked me out,
I would shove away my feelings, tell him "no".
I want him to be with her,
I want her to be with him...
But there's something I can't stop,
And that's me falling in.
I know I need to STOP IT.
I know I need to DROP THIS.
I've fallen in love with something way out of reach
PAIN
Like I got slapped across the cheek.
A little part of me wants his love,
A bigger part of me doesn't.
I don't wan him to love me,
I want him to love her.
Please
Please
Please don't love me
This is the way I want it to be.
I'm love sick I know it,
I'm crazy I hope I don't show it.
I long for your touch
I miss you so much.
Please
Get out of my mind.
There is a part
Of my heart
That now belongs to you
And please I need it back.
You already have someone
I know this isn't right.
But i know that you'll be on my mind
From the morning light
To the stars at night.
