I'm stuck deep down inside my skin, i cant be found I'm hiding deep within
where I'm at nobody can see what it is that makes me cry, quiver or bleed
I'm one of your biggest secrets hiding from all judgments of you friends
as soon as i said yes i accept to be your girlfriend we were bound to end...
i was your only lie, hidden from your whole world, i was your worst decision
i also wasn't your only girl...i could have been your happiness, you safe place
for love, be the one you trusted.....the one you ached to hug
i don't even care anymore, i don't know what we are or if we'll ever be all i know
is I'm all alone and its eating me. i turn down the ones who would take up my
time, the ones who would adore me but instead I'm with you who treats
me as if my worth is less than a dime.
why don't i trust you? is it just me, am i so paranoid that i cant see that you really
are in love with me? or is it my gut instinct to believe that its not just me. that
theres somebody else and I'm just a tease that doesn't know how to please.
how comes its me who cant fulfill your every need, how come another woman is
always replacing me? what did i do wrong to be forgotten, did i cause you so much
pain that i was stereo-typed as rotten? i thought we were so good why did you have
to lie, couldn't you have told me the truth and spared us that chunk of our life?
i got so lucky to be put in another home, where my birth mom couldn't touch me,
my emotions are still cold as stone. i was told not to miss her, its almost as if
I'm not aloud to know my other half, my birth dad doesn't know i exist how long
will this hurt last?
how long will it go unnoticed all these tears Ive cried, when will she see drugs are
useless and i could of been right by her side, does she care about me, does she
think bout me at night, when will this hole in me be filled, is she ever going to try?
