By Not Being There

I feel so alone,
I feel so dead,
I feel so small,
Lying in this cold bloody bed.

I have no one to love,
And no one loves me,
I'm sinking into the depths of hell,
I don't think my soul will ever be redeemed.

I'm an emotional wreck,
All I do is cry,
I pray endlessly that you'll take me back,
I pray endlessly to die.

Theres no point in living,
I can't live without your love,
Even if it was pretend,
I find that you are still all that I dream of.

I never wanted to hurt you,
I never wanted to cause you pain,
I regret what I did to you,
I live in constant shame.

Someday you'll find out how much you mean to me,
And how much I really care,
You'll find out how much you hurt me,
Just by not being there.

Dedicated to K