Why Can't I tell you

I lay there in my bed,
thinking in my head
why can't i tell you?

I want you to know these feelings,
The ones i try to hide,
Should i tell you?
Or should i let this love slide,

I want you by fate,
I don't want you by bribery,
I want to tell you to your face,
Not in my diary,

This love is forbidden,
To pass from my mouth,
Its like my mouth is filled with a big ball,
Every time you pass in the hall,

Every now and then,
I try again and again,
But my lips stay shut,
I feel as lonely as a filthy drenched mutt,

This will be the day,
I say,
I tell myself everyday,
I try and try but its no use,

I can never let these words loose

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