Do you know how much you mean to me?
You mean so much that I can't even describe it.
Your my best friend and the one I can look up to.
You've taught me so many great things.
It hurts me when you put yourself down.
Cuz it's exactly what I think of myself and not you.
It's nice to know that your going through the same shit,
but I feel for you the hurt cuz I don't want you to feel the same thing I do.
I scream for someone.
Nobody rushed to help me though.
All I want is someone to be there for me like you were.
When you leave, I'm afraid I won't have anybody else to talk to like I did with you.
Nobody that I can trust and hang out with like you.
I wish there wasn't just one of you.
I worry I'll be so alone when you leave.
And that I won't find anyone else.
And when I wake up the pain is still there.
Throbbing in my stomach making my day a living nightmare.
It's like a sharp knife that never goes away.
I wonder what it will feel like when the day comes to be a reality.
I'm scared cuz I don't ever want to forget your smile or your laugh.
And I don't want you to forget mine.
I wish I could tear the hard exterior off.
Reach inside and stop the pain from ever coming back.
