Coming back here shouldn’t feel like this,
As if my heart would surely stop beating,
As if my mind would simply cease to be.
How can all my memories of here
Terrify me,
Why does it seem as if the walls would cave in around me?
For so long I have wished to come back here,
But I can’t remember why.
The tears threaten to drown my heart,
My soul screams out in the agony of all my sorrow.
I can’t recall the good times when I'm here,
I can’t think of the joy, only the pain,
Only the deep sadness that once tried to destroy me,
The darkness in which I wallowed for so many years
Comes back to haunt me when I'm here
