Why???

Why does it still hurt even though it happen so long ago?
Why do u get to live a happy life while I’m the one that suffers?
You are always on my mind
You are always in my dreams
You are the one who stops me from loving
You are the one who stops me from living
I know it was so long ago but I remember it like it was yesterday
I really can’t handle this any more.
I really want to die
No-one will understand what I go through because no-one could ever no what u did to me
I’m sick of living
I’m sick of you always happy, always smiling
You talk to me like nothing happen
You talk to me like everything is ok
Do you not remember what you did to me?
Do you not understand what I go through everytime I see you?
Maybe one day this will get easier
But until that day comes I wish I could just die!