I just wanted to change

Once i never cared what other people thought about me
i once had a great time of my life
but ever since my life i once knew was broken into pieces
i just wanted to throw everything i once believe in or love away into the trash can
i just wanted to change
i just wanted a new life
i just wanted to show the world that i belong
but the more harder i want to change
the deeper the hole in my mind grows
it's keeping me the same no matter how hard i try
it's keeping me the same boy i once was
telling jokes and jerking off
i wanted to grow up and leave the laugh and jokes behind
i wanted to change into a person who the world would understand and accept
i just wanted to change