So i was watching a movie and that got boring... and then i was watching TV and then i just shut it off....
i was laying in my bed of about an hour or so... so many thoughts swirling... into storm clouds... so confused .. thinking of past things as i read recollections and thoughts of previous likes and mates.
Thinking, thinking as i sit, high in the clouds not knowing what thing ill be thinking of next....
as i keep having these associations of ideas, I cant help but think of my past... Do i still poses these things i feel for that person?, do I still think of that person as "the one"?, and.... Why cant I stop thinking?.... I'm thinking my self into a grave... a grave were ill do more thinking about what me thinking was the put me in this grave of disbelief....
But i love this person...why would i be thinking about past recollections and mind....
Much has been running threw my head...since Ive seen my true self... The self that "i think" everyone sees... the person that i don't see and do when i look in the mirror....
I see a unattractive,uninviting, unlovely, unprepossessing, unseemly, unsightly, unbeautifully,ill-favored,awful, bad-looking,frightful... the definitions of me myself and I ...only
I don't want to loose the best thing that has ever happened to me... but do u think that I should flee,cast off, clear out, come away, cut out,.....part.......walk out... on the best thing- the definitions of my thoughts
I love you.... and ...and.....and....shit..... but I love you........and...and...and... devoted... and in love
