My Feelings

Holding in pain
Waking with swollen eyes
when frowns are the truth
and smiles are lies

not being happy
but forced to smile
internal tears going
all the long while

moving away
from the ones that care
make life uneasy
and seem unfair

not fitting in
where your "supposed" to be
and not belonging
to the family you see

wanting to run away
never to turn back
get rid of your sorrow
gain happiness you lack

there are my feelings
that won't go away
this is what i think
throughout every day

so please help me
tell me what to do
make me happy
for the first time in this blue moon