I've tried holding back the tears.
I've tried holding back the pain.
I've tried holding back the anger.
I've tried hold back the hateful words.
But no matter how hard I may try, they all seem to find a way out.
And I'm breaking inside.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel.
But I'm so scared, so scared to hurt your feelings.
Why is it that I would rather be in pain then to have you fell guilty for my agony?
Because that is how much I care for you.
I would do anything for you to be happy.
Even if it meant for me to be sad.
I try to act like I'm fine.
I try to act like I don't care.
But really I'm breaking down inside.
What am I suppose to do with myself when I see you with my friend.
Am I suppose to act like every things fine?
Am I suppose to act like I don't care?
Am I suppose to act like I'm cool with all of it?
I'm afraid if I keep on pretending I might explode inside.
But its ok because I would rather see you happy then to have you feel guilty for my sadness.
So that what i have to do.
To keep on pretending.
Yes, that is what I have to do, to keep on pretending, so you are happy.
