Your Feelings Are Nonsense

I don't know what to say,
I don't know what to feel.
I'm just hoping to god,
That none of this is real.

Why must friends leave,
And their last gift is the knife?
Why must guys lie,
And give you so much spite?

How come things can't go well,
Just for a little while?
Why can't I feel the pain,
Till my blood pours like the Nile?

The tears I cry,
Don't come from my eyes.
Why must everyone,
Choose a side.

I make no sense ,
In what I speak.
These are just thought in mind,
They all seep.

Please don't leave me,
I need you so.
I feel your all I have left.
Please don't go.

But it would never work,
Now I just assume.
I think my feelings are controlling me,
They begin to consume.

I wish that you were closer,
And I wasn't so far.
I wish that I could see you,
I don't like things how they are.

But I can't change them,
Oh I wish I could.
If I could make you smile,
You know I would.

But for some reason,
I bring you down.
I want you to smile,
I want to run from town.

If I could hug you,
I would fill with joy.
Just please don't break my heart,
It's not a toy.

I wish I knew who I was speaking to,
Myself just doesn't count.
I have fallen off the horse,
I must get back on, I must mount.

I would like for you to hold me,
I would like the world to implode.
If I don't get this all out,
My feelings will explode.

I want you to be happy,
I need to see your smile.
Please just hold me in your arms,
Keep me safe for a while.

Take me from this place,
Or I'll take me from this life.
I'll let you pick the weapon,
Oh please pick the knife.

It's all up to you,
Put a knife in my back.
I'm going to leave this place,
I'm going with nothing but a sack.

The poem has no true end,
These are just thoughts.
None really matter,
I'm running-I wont get caught.