It seems like
every step I take
leads me to worse
situations than I am already in.
It has never come to my attention
yet it has now that
the way I get treated,
the way I get handled,
involves disrespect.
Disrespect to me,
disrespect to everything I believe in,
and last but not least,
disrespect to who I would have died for.
Knowing my life does not include
one happy memory,
one happy situation,
one moment where I feel loved,
lucky or even good enough.
Haters , Lovers, you`you've all scared me for life.
But if it wasn't`t for your hatred,
your envy,
or even your love,
I wouldn't`t be the girl I am today.
Yes, girl on the outside.
But matured much more than anyone here
will ever.
Knowing you have all put me through
b.s, love, heart-break and pain.
Knowing you did it out of careness.
Knowing one day of my life,
one of you HAVE cared.
Loving you has been the biggest mistake of my life,
telling you i cared,
being there for you has cost me my friends,
and even my life,
Even tho I`m still here physically,
I wish I wasn't`t.
Next time you wonder why i`m as picky as I am,
first find out what I`i've been through,
`Cause you wouldn't`t imagine
all the shit i`i've been through.
Needless to say,
I am frightened of the next step in my life i take,
I am frightened if it`ll be a wrong or a right,
I am frightened of opening my heart for people to come through,
I am frightened not knowing what you feel,
I am frightened of how you would treat me,
I am frightened to admit it,
But now it`s time i have to.
i AM frightened and will be for the rest of my life.
