My Reality

As I think of the intimate moments we shared, my will to live diminishes ever so slowly, and I'm afraid...
it was odd to me, I never feared death... not the pain, not the fear of losing any worldly possessions, I felt that there was nothing in this world that I'd leave behind and abandon... and then I met You...
Suddenly I was afraid, i was afraid to die, the thought of not being with You it consumed me, and I felt like a lost child with out You... I was afraid to lose You, afraid that I would never hear you say *I Love you*, .. but now .. but now my Life .. I've already lost You ... what does this mean?
... I live in a world where death is simply a nightmare ...
I'm already dead,
... I've lost You,
God! ... I've lost You