Your never there

Why must you
make me hurt,
all you do is
treat me like dirt,

no matter what I do
I can never quite,
get it through
to you,

you don't feel,
what I feel,
you don't
see what I see,

you don't know
all the agony,
that lies
deep inside me,

I wish you could
understand the real me,
but you never will know
so just let me be,

your never there,
when I need you the most,
sometimes I feel
like I'm only a ghost,

I try hard
to please you,
I just wish
I knew how,

I want to help
and make you smile,
but I fail you
wanting to succeed all the while,

I'm not sure what to do
do I try to hold on,
or end it
this soon?!?!?!