Lost in what's no longer there.
Lost in the dreams of death.
Lost in how you said "I care."
And how you watched me take my last happy breath.
You broke my heart on purpose,
You said I'd be okay.
But that was just another lie,
More pain for tomorrow's yesterday.
Confused and hurt beyond end,
Sick of life itself.
You said you were my best friend,
But you caused me to remove the pain from a shelf.
Crying bloody tears,
From the pain you left behind.
Hiding from what's real,
Hiding from it all.
Don't like having to feel,
As if I'm ready to fall.
But you left me with nothing else,
Nothing there for show.
All you did was cause me pain,
Just so you know.
I loved you with all my heart,
And for some reason that didn't matter.
You tore me apart,
and left me here to shatter.
So goodbye to my friends and family,
Forget I was ever alive.
I'm sick of even trying,
Trying at all to survive.
I'm going to let you think what you want,
Because I'm done with life.
"I love you."
-The last thing carved into my skin with a knife.
