Dirty little secrets

They don't see the real me
they just see a different side
they cant see through my mask
they just cant seem to fine

i am all smiles and laughs
when they are around
i tell them its me
its me who I've found

they believe every word i say
they just go on laughing
holding one to true happiness so dear
not knowing whats really true

i sit on the sidelines
and pretend to be happy
i cross my fingers
and try not to look so crappy

so why is it you
who can see through my skin
when no one else can
you that knows my life has to begin

i try so hard to hold my head up high
when I'm around you
but you still see right through that
knowing that I'm not true

they think I'm happy
but when I'm far from
i even try convincing you
but you know me too well

i hold on to life
and live day by day
i don't want this to continue
i have nothing more to say

from what has happened
in my past, i haven't yet let go
they all think i don't care
but for them i don't show.

my heart ache and betrayal
the screaming of ones voice
the disgust when i look back
thinking it was my choice

they think i don't
let it bother me at all
saying it was long ago
but they don't know how hard i fall

you still don't know
every little secret
but no one ever does

so I'm still wondering
how u know who i am
though i haven't told u
you still see through