Back To The Edge

Back to self harm,
For no reason.
My emotions are changing,
Faster than the season.

Shaking, needing an edge,
Need to feel pain...
I need to ease the anger,
Before i choose suicide again!

Why, i ask myself?
Why do i want a scar?
If it gets too hard,
Who knows how far...

As i am writing,
I need an easy way out...
But i don't know why,
Whats my anger all about?

Why do i need a knife,
Why is it i crave,
The sharp edge of a tool,
Sick of being brave?

Whatever the reason,
I don't really care...
I just need a release,
But there isn't one there?!?!?!

I'm not a fool,
But i am insane...
Why must i go back,
To the edge again!

I know that its wrong,
But what is now right?
Is it good,
To put up a fight?

What do i fight for,
What is my cause?
Too late, i have cut,
Too late to pause.

Sorry i am back to this,
Sorry, i am true..
I don't mean to be stupid,
I don't mean to hurt you...