I feel.....

By bee

Sometimes i feel
too full
and then i let
these droplets fall from my
eyes
and then i am
freed
from these emotions
the love
the hate
the joy
the pain
and i can continue
to feel
numb
and i will carry these
burdens
upon my shoulders
for they will not betray me
as others have
and they will not
fail me
as others have
for if they do
i did not
deserve them
to begin
just like
i do not
deserve
you
and it is not
self pity
for others see it too
for i can not keep you happy forever
and i will
sit
and wait
hoping you do not realize
for if you did
you would leave
and if you left
i would have to
feel again
the pain
i would have to face this world
and i have never done so
without
your arms around
me
to protect me from the
hurt
so i will try to feel
for it wold make you
happy
but it is hard
for i have been
emotionless
for so long
but i will succeed
for you
and me