How I Live Now

I really want to say everything
But I don’t where to start
Every time I think I like you
You succeed on pulling me apart

I don’t know what to do any more
You don’t know what you do to me
You always make me this way
And I don’t know how to make you see

Terrible substances ruin it all
And send me to sleep in tears
I see the image of you
And over my bed it leers

I wish I didnt no you
And had never heard you name
And through all of this
The substance is what you blame

Apologies pour from your mouth
But you have no clue
It hurts more every time
I’ve figured out this is true

I don’t care what you do
Or even what you say
It’s harder and harder to breathe
Every single day

You used to make everything ok
And I had a reason to live
But every hour of every day
Is a reminder that I don’t know what to give

I’m cold and confused
You made me this way
You wonder why in angry
And I could never make you stay

I’m sorry that I wasn't everything you wanted
I did everything I could
I guess I wasn't good enough
But I knew I never would