Broken girl

I'm shaking in the same place you just left me moment ago.
Your voice is still ringing in my ears
I remember what you said "you'll never be my daughter"
Then I scream, I scream just to block out your words.
I cry myself to sleep then waking up to the morning sun, it glares at me with beauty and happiness I stare while thinking "it lies" nothing is beautiful anymore, I can’t feel happiness anymore.

I get dressed for the meaning less day of school just walking on automatic.
I bump into someone and all they can say is "watch it freak"
People talking, laughing, whispering to there friends.
I hate it, I despise there happiness, I’m jealous, I want to love and to be loved
But I cant I'm just an ugly girl with a broken soul.
I run home, quietly sneaking away from mother doesn’t want another encounter with her hurtful words.
I climb upstairs knowing this will be the last, I stand there at the bathroom mirror thinking "who is this girl" I shake my head and cast a ghost smile.
I grab my most prize possession, while sitting down on the cold tile. Staring at for a while watching my reflection glint across it, then slowly put it against my wrist.
Then I feel a little light headed, I press harder.
While doing this I say one word "goodbye" my world goes black.