Lost Girl

*Ppl- This isn't a really good poem but I just wrote how I felt at the moment. I'm going to improve it later in the other poems that I'll write later, but I just need to get these stuff out of my head...*

I'm a lost girl not knowing what to do,
I have spent all my time thinking about "him."
But then he tells me that he never liked me,
It broke my heart into pieces and worse,
I can't help living a minute without thinking,
"Who am I supposed to live for?"
"What is the point of life now?"
"What or who can I look forward to?"
"Who can give me a hug?"
"Who's going to dance with me at the dances?"
"Who can I call when I'm lost?"
And now I'm lost.

I can't forget about him,
When he said those words,
"I never really liked you,"
I got sad,
Then I got mad,
I tore apart everything,
Pictures, letters, notes, presents, flowers,
But I regret that I never threw them away,
There won't be any memories to look at,
Even if it was painful now,
I might of looked at it a year later,
It might of been a funny memory...

I'm alone and I can't keep those words he said out of my head.
It floats back in and out,
When I'm in the shower,
It comes back again and then I'm scared, frightened, afraid.
I want to get out of there,
I don't want to be alone,
But without him to think and love that's what I feel,
When I try to sleep I think of it then I start crying unable to stop,
Then comes daylight, breakfast, and those empty feelings.
I get scared not knowing what to do in life,
Why am I living why am I alive?

I don't want to face him for I really face the truth,
He never liked me and he never will,
He'll ignore me of course he would.
When I go to school what would I do?
I'll be quiet and an inside girl,
Because I don't feel myself.
But maybe I was never my real self when I was with him,
Maybe I can find my real self alone and silent...