Gone

I am feeling broken at the moment,
I feel like your not worth it,
You told me you were gonna do something,
You were gonna take a hit.

I just could not handle what you told me,
I just could not think of the outcome,
All I wished for was you to come to your senses,
And to realize that you were being dumb.

You made me wanna die,
I could not handle what you were gonna do,
All I could think about was your safety,
But you still would not come true.

I was being so mean to you,
I wanted you to think of what you were going to do,
This is something too serious,
And it put me back into the blue.

I felt like cutting, I felt like crying,
But that was not the way I should handle this,
I should be right next to you,
And that I should do, you insist.

But I will always remember the pain I received,
The pain I got when you hurt me,
But you will never know how much I am hurt,
Because I will let you be.

I will trust you less,
I thought I could trust you with my life,
But it was just as worse,
As giving you the knife.

I begged and shouted for you to stop,
But you just would not think about me,
All you could think about was yourself,
And how the feeling will be.

I tried threatening you with suicide,
But of course I was over reacting,
I had a life which I enjoyed,
And I will change the way I was acting.

But I will remember you as the sophisticated man I knew,
I will try not to remember you as you are now,
But there will be times,
When I think “Why can not you be like that now?”.

I have tried everything in power,
To make you think twice,
I have tried with the cutting thing,
And even went as far as my demise.

But obviously you do not care,
My life could be ended because of your choice,
And if I was to die,
I would always remember your smile, your voice.

But I am not as stupid as that,
It is only a mind changing thing,
But if it was to do more than that,
I could only imagine what that could bring.

Now as I think to myself,
I have accepted your decision,
And you can go do that,
With my permission.

I will be keeping an eye on you,
Just to see what you get up to,
One little thing that you do that wrong,
And that’s the end of me….. I am gone.