I hate this

I never wanted to be like this when i got older drinking,smoking pot,everything i should not.yelling at my mom its been going on for to long.i need to stop i need to quit but if i would the depress en will hit.i guess i should keep writing things down but the sad thing is none never sees a frown.i guess i am afraid to show what i feel its not really a big deal none would care none would understand they'dbe like she missing with you man.but it don't matter in the end iam just a Lil girl with no friend.