Friends to the End

I don't know what it is about your smile but it lights up a room like electricity. What have i done to ruin this friendship? How could I have let you go? We should of been best friends to the very the end but you let me live alone with out you by my side. Now feel I need to die. I just want to break down and cry and I just don't know what to do with out you here. But we swore never to stop being friends no matter what so why aren't we still best friends?