This poem i dedicated to Dinesh. He was my first love when i was studying A-Level 3 years ago.
If i may, i placed myself in ice cube refugee,
or..ray dessert ..
i am your endless fugitive,
i can run but i cant hide...
send me home, those r my prayers for 12 seasons.
Didn't we agree?
HE separated us,
Didn't u the one has plain feelings?
Didn't u the one doesn't look back?
U still keeping it...my silky soul.
U still burning the flame...
U always running, with your confusion eyes
With your mischievous smile..
Still, u caught me not behind bars,
it's in great obsession, obsession alone.
Your eyes took a peek, didn't they?
On I'm-struggling- searching-for- a -raft-moment,
Insanity,dissatisfaction, rage, even worst..
My love for u, how can i purge to the world,
Or rather to you?
We r not longer in the same radius,
Yet, my pensiveness are immortal,
Your mislead crushing me
Piece by piece, layer by layer,
Cover by cover..n still crushing.
On your verdiction, i was never matter to you.
Never meant a matter to you...
You changed my brown eyes to blue,
I want to b free from this
Pushed n pulled episodes,
No more set on fire, cause i don't want
to have any longing for you.
I don't want to run anymore..
I just want to come home.
You never get it right
So return to me things you never own
Free me, it's exhausting
Cause i don't want to be your fugitive.
I want to end this.
