Lying here wondering

Lying here wondering how I ever let you do that to me
I no it was sometime ago and people say I should get over it but its hard to
I just want to no the truth on why you had to hurt me the way you did
Can we take a moment and go back to how it use to be and change whatever made you do that to me
Is the truth to much to ask from you?
Cant I just have the truth about all the lies??
Why won’t you tell me still??
It was years ago you have a life and I have one finely now
I just want to no why I had to be put threw that and have to go threw the stages of recovering the recovering that I should have never had to go threw
Did you have it planned at the time to hurt me like that??
Did you ever mean to or was it just another one of your accidents??
Do you care that you did that to me??
Do you wish you could go back and ever change the past??
Lying here wondering if I am the one to blame for all my pain
Was it me to begain with did I ask for it?
What made you want to hurt me
Did you no even tho it was 3 years ago it still hurts to no that you did that to me to this day
Lying here wondering what would my life be like if you would have never been like that

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THIS POEM I WROTE IS REAL ITS OF MY LIFE ITS NOT JUST SOMETHING I JUST MADE UP
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