Not how it should have ended

by alana   Aug 14, 2005


The pain killers are there sitting on my night stand,
they have been there for a while now,
waking up every morning debating weather if today is the day that i just end it all for good
I have managed to avoide them for a while now
but tonight feels different, as I lay in bed crying, staring at them and the bottle of water i have just in case i decide to do it
well I have made up my mind here it goes I pick up the bottle and choake down the pills
I lay there until I slowly start to fade out of this life
I start to scream when I realize this is not what I wanted after all
but no one is there for me
im starting to disappear this is the end there are no more pain killers waiting there for me to make up my mind

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  • 16 years ago

    by Aureus Argentum

    I like it... :) but the whole in the depths of despair vibe can really give a person the heebie-jeebies. :) No worries, though. Great job.

  • 18 years ago

    by ShatteredGirl

    That was great... i have been there... i've ova dosed many times n came close once... then i realised wat i have... its not worth it. but i can totally relate to it. 5. it was excellent!
    great work :-)

  • 18 years ago

    by kida

    Omg that is sad but i dont think it is da best written poem i have eva read but it is good keep up da good work n u will get betta also i like da heart dat fills dis it almost makes a picture in my mind.

  • 18 years ago

    by amanda?!

    Wow, its so real.

  • 18 years ago

    by AllCutUp

    Wow
    Totalli awesumm
    5/5 deffinetly.
    Take care
    ~AllCutUp~