I don't want to be this person

Although she was alone,
in a way she was happy.
For being alone she didn't have to worry,
about what she should be.

She didn't have to be a prep,
She didn't have to smile.
But no one really knew,
that she'd been pretending all the while.

Her long sleeved blouses were cute,
But you should see underneath.
But she had to do it...you have to understand..she just needed to breathe.

Although she acts so perfect,
her world has fell apart.
And although she acts like she loves you all,
she has lost her heart.

For all the ones she truly loved,
deceived her in so many ways.
So thats why shes had to pretend for all of these days.

And although she acts fine alone,
its eating her up inside.
This pain is getting so much more real,
it's not that easy to hide.

"But she has all the friends in the world,
I wish I could have her life!"
But she cannot trust anyone..
all except for her friend the knife.

And when all the boys have their weed,
She just takes a hit.
She just doesn't care anymore,
She's sick of all this sh*t.

And although she doesn't like the beer,
She still takes a drink.
And as the liquid burns her throat,
it makes her stomach sink.

But soon it will be tomorrow,
and it will all be okay.
Because she's not even going to remember it anyway.

She started to do things with the boys,
Because it made her feel loved.
Then it got so violent,
when she said no they shoved.

So she had more bruises,
than the ones she gave herself.
It seemed everything was wrong,
she was trapped in her own h*ll.

So next time you look at the girl,
You won't see a prep.
I'll see a girl that was troubled,
and you were too busy to help.

You'll see her eyes bloodshot,
as she trys to walk.
You'll hear the boys tell their stories,
Just because you were too busy to talk.

So when you see this girl smile,
will you realize it's a fake?
Will you finally help her out of this nightmare,
she's been begging to awake?

So please won't you save her..
I guess I really mean to say save me..
This is all wrong..
This person..I don't want to be.