Confusion

Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why can't I get you out of my head?
I don't miss being with you,
But I miss your comforting touch.

When I had my head on your shoulder,
I felt like everything was ok.
Now you flinch to even touch me,
And you don't know how much it hurts.

I feel the warm light,
Fading away.
I feel like you're,
Drifting away.

Now you're around her all the time,
Acting like she's your closest friend.
Instead of me.

Trying to figure out,
If you still want to be my sister.
My best friend, my closest,
Can you help me out here?

I'm trying to give you space,
How am I doing?
I'm trying to let it 'play out',
How's that going?

Are you still not comfortable hugging me?
If so I'm sorry that's how it is.
Are you ever going to let me try,
To understand you again?

Are you ever going to talk to me
Like you used to?
I love you unconditionally,
You've saved my life.

But right now,
I'm so confused.
Please,
Help me understand.

I don't want to lose you Amanda.....