Final goodbye wasnt meant to be

What once used to be
isn't any more
i have screwed up yet again
and lost all the chance i had

we were so close
and even considered inseparable
but then the jealousy came from others
and i started to freak out

using anger as my shield
i pulled myself away from what we had
blaming all my pain on you
and tried to ignore my guilty conscience

we became to close
and you got to deep
i very nearly trusted you
and now your gone

i have no-one to blame but myself
i guess I'll just have to go through life alone
all the sorry's, the tears, the blood
won't ever bring back your trust

and the final goodbye i said to you
i thought was the end, believe me,
it was much more
and for once in my life, i wish that the pain wasn't real