Letting Go... while Holding On

As I walked away,
Did you heard me cry?
Did you felt the pain
As I breathed and sighed?

I wanted to hug you
As I pushed you away,
Hoping you would leave
And yet, wanting you to stay.

You did not understand...
And neither do I.
I need you to be here,
I cannot say good-bye.

I see you when you are near;
I miss you when you are far.
I think about you during the day And underneath the stars.

People say harsh things
And I try not to believe,
But I feel the doubt behind me When I see the things I see.

The things you say
Can make me melt.
It is hard to walk away
From the things I felt.

I know this is hard
And I do not mean to be,
I promise you are not alone...
The pain is also with me.

I do not mean to be selfish,
I just don't know why.
Please do not be upset with me
Maybe that bright day
Will be just you and me.