Something i never really had..

I guess we used to be Friends..
but I'm not really sure
something always stood between us
something with no cure

I'm not sure exactly what it is..
and I'm not really sure why
but I'm sensitive about you
everything you do makes me cry

like if you forget to say hello
or ask me how Ive been
i cry.. and i know its selfish..
probably some sort of sin

but i cant help that i want you..
to need me like i do..
i cant help how i feel..
every time I'm near you

i cant help how i dream
about you every night
how i yearn for your touch..
to make things alright..

and i wish i could stop..
but heres something you don't know..
I'm not even hanging on..
so i can let go..

because all that i cling to..
are my day dreams and nights
the fantasy and hope..
that someday things will be right

and i know that that its crazy..
cause you don't even know me..
i try to get near you ..
but you just cant see me

how its killing me inside..
all that you don't know..
all the feelings i hide..
and cant ever show..

but i just cant help it..
theres nothing i can do..
theres nothing anyone can say..
to help me get over you..

and i cant help that its real..
the way you make me sad..
i just cant help that i want..
something i never really had..