Unsure of what do I grab the knife
to get rid of my own life
To be blind to all light
Life is just a big fight
Not knowing when it will strike back
Why do I think like that something I must lack
Blind to see and blind to not
Just to slice my wrist with what I got
How much I would want to die
Not just to slice my wrist and cry
I think what will they say when they find me
Will they leave me there and let me be
Be the dead and silent
Never spoke a word
Now I just need the lord
My life is going to finish
There is not one doubt
Say good bye
And never deny
What I did was for my own good
You lied to me so many years
Now after 15 years you bring
To me just that one thing
The one thing I always thought was a lie
I would ask you and you would cry
You adopted me
You lied to me
I am thankful
But disgraceful
You should hide your face
So I don’t have to go through this like a race
Why did you never say a thing
You tried to help well guess what all you bring…
Is a whole lot of anger, disgrace, pain,
How much would I give to get out in the rain
As I look out the window I see some swings
And I think I need to bring some things
To go out for a while
I will walk for a mile
Until I reach the spot
I rush out like a bust of fire
Thinking of my next move.
To be seen or not
Who will miss me no one
As I am about to do the unthinkable
I say more pain the less you will gain
But the faster you will die
No need for tears
I grab my knife
And I say good bye to my life
I get on the swing and hang myself
After some hours they find me
under me a puddle of blood
Their dear daughter is dead
No way no thought
I did the unthinkable
What they thought was not reachable
By a teenager
They were wrong to judge me
Now what is there to say
Maybe I am sorry for what I did
My life is just a bliss
Thank you mom for taking care of me
When my birth mother left me at a 7 11
You really deserve to be called my mother
And you my father
Thank you and forever you will be in my heart
Everywhere I go
THIS IS WHAT WAS ACTUALLY GOING THROUGH MY MIND A LOT OF PAIN AND ANGER YET SOMEONE HELPED ME AND OPENED MY EYES TO TELL ME NOT TO BE LIVING BETWEEN ALL THE LIES SO THANK YOU MOTHER THANK YOU FATHER FOR HELPING ME WHEN TIMES WERE BAD WHEN TIMES WERE GOOD AND HELPING ME REALIZE LIFE IS JUST HERE ONCE NO WAY IF I DIE WILL I LIVE WHAT I GOT TO LIVE IN MY LIFE
~ please comment this means a lot to me ~(C)
