I hate you* :'(

I lay here and cry but all i wanna do is die, I can\\\'t help but feel this pain i feel, it\\\'s tearing me up inside, Doesn't anyone care? Doesn't anyone know? Why does it have to be me? Why can't it be you? After all you're the one that started the whole thing, you're the reason why i feel this way, but you don't care, you sit and watch as if I'm not even there, its like I'm invisible just thin air, I try to tell you that I'm the same but you don't listen, Just because I'm fat doesn't mean I'm different, I try hard to fit in but you seem to push me away, I just want to lock myself up and not come out because all you do is abuse me and just because you're not hitting me, doesn't mean you're not hurting me because you are and you are hurting me more by abusing me than hitting me so just so you know I HATE YOU from all the pain you've put me through, so now you can suffer like me!!