Only Then

In one flick of my wrist
The people i've ever known
Would disappear from view
From life, from me, forever

No longer would i have to live
In the fear of bleeding from my back
The fear of dying from love
The fear of suffering ignorance

Only in death would i be free
Of my own convictions raised above me
Only in sight would i truly live
Only in exile would i truly thrive

In the darkness i would feel no pain
No paranoia sinking its fangs
Deep within my solitude i'd fee safe
My tears and words to feed me

In one fell swoop they'd vanish
From time and all existence
Only then would i suffer freely
Only then will i live without pain

*Not really much of a poem... i was just going with a thought i had*