Not my life

This life is not mine,
I dont belong here,
My life is not this kind,
My life is full of fear,

This smile does not belong,
Frowns and tears,
It's what my face longs,
It's been this way for years,

I'm ready to break,
The knife will cut deep,
My life I shall take,
Oh it will feel sweet,

All this will be fine,
I will be myself,
This life will be mine,
It won't be hidden on the shelf,

People don't care,
My friends are afraid,
Their love has wared,
I have come out from the shade