I often wonder.

I often sit and wonder why god sent her to me..

i am so, not perfect, not the man that i need to be.. one of the people that has deserved to die since i was born..

i have lived through more things than i should have...

i was born 6 months early,
i jumped out a 3 story window, been hit by 2 cars, didn't wake up from surgery twice...

but my Angel is now here, her wings are tucked under her shirt i swear,,, her halo, polished and tucked away in her pocket...

many nights i had sat and cried.. not real tears but tears of blood.

but now that she is here, she has grabbed me by the heart and changed everything that i am.. she is the one i had dreamed about for all of my life.

But now that i have it, i don't ever want to let it go, but i wonder, is this payback for the hell i endured as a kid, or was my angel sent to show me that my life is fine, and has not a problem in the world...

I love you... i wish i could marry you.. forget what everyone else says. You are perfect. you are my angel...