Dear Dad,
Drink your beers
Hit me then laugh at my
tears
They just fuel your rage
I'm asking for it
OVERPOWER me and try to
kill me
CHOCK me, cut off my air till
I'm blue and can't breathe
HATE me for not being yours
KICK me as I try to crawl
away
BEAT me instead of Mom, I'm
small and weak
WHIP me
SMACK me, smirk when I
scream
PINCH me and whisper mean
things to me
Throw me around cause
Mom didn't clean
Take your anger at the world
out on me; push your
problems on me
I'm the scapegoat, I'm the
bad seed, and I'm the food
Mom eats
Just PUNCH me, I'm the one
who fired you
I'm the pill mom constantly
takes
I'm the life you choose, the
alcohol that brings you down
It's my entire fault you're in
debt and about to lose the
house
Yell and scream obscenities,
Stomp on my self-esteem
and ruin me emotionally
Make me hate myself
Take out your frustrations
and play mind games
All the while knowing you
are making me crazy
But remember to tell me
you're sorry when your anger
is released
Look at my ouches; kiss my
tears away,
Tell me that you love me and
it's not my fault
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
Reassure me that God made
me to be hated
Smile at the damages that
you see
Be proud of the bruises and
the welts and before I go to
bed
Threaten me so I won't tell
Tell me you'll lock me in the
closet again
You'll be the only on I'll
ever see
To make sure I believe the
threat, don't let me eat
Make sure everyone believes
your lies
Tell everyone how clumsy I
am and I hurt myself
constantly
When you put bruises where people can see
Lock me in a prison of hate
and fear
So I'll never be free
Remember Daddy,
The Abusee
P.S.
I still love you,
Because you were the only
one who paid attention to me
No matter how much you
hurt me
I believe you when you
promise never to hurt me
again
You torment me into loving
you
Making me thankful you care
enough: to beat me,
To limbed self-hatred in my
skin whit your fists,
To punish me for being me
I know you do this to remind
me of what a mistake I am
and a mistake
I'll always be
