Questions

Sometimes I sit here and wonder about all the things I have missed
There are so many people I have cared about, so many I have kissed
For better or for worse they are not here anymore
They have all left me alone, they have all walked out of my door
Usually that door has been slammed and usually I have gotten hurt
With each new event the pain grows and there’s nothing I can do to deter
I sit and wonder why I even try to find new love for me
I sit and wonder why does love seem like the open sea
All I want is to be loved, all I want is to be needed
They always turn away, they always leave me cheated
Can’t lose this pain, can’t lose these bad memories
I’m left alone to cry, these tears bring me to my knees
Why does love’s sting have to hurt so much
How can I keep thinking of you, when it’s you I can no longer touch
I don’t want to find anyone else, when you’re the one I need
I don’t want to look further, because with you I have sewn a seed
I want to be happy in your arms, I want to again see you smile
I want you to make it all better, I want you to again make me a child
But that won’t happen, that won’t ever come true
For something’s gone that I miss most, and that something is you
So you have joined in the line of all lovers of the past
Only you are first now, until someone new joins this cast
I guess you’ll never see my pain and I guess you’ll never care to know
What you mean to me, what love I could have showed
I have to deal with the fact you’ll never darken my doorstep again
I just hope I can find some light again, I hope that the next battle I’ll win
There is nothing left to say, nothing left to feel
I’ll just sit and wonder about this thing called love, is it even real