You told me everything I ever needed to hear, even though we both knew it was a lie
Remember when you whispered in my ear that you loved me?
I swallowed your words like water
So clean and pure-
They dissolved into my heart
pumping repeating it's old brag-
I am I am I am
And you have no idea how much pain you have felt
how little it truly was
Until you look into the eyes of the one you truly love-
and see nothing...
nothing at all but the glare of light.
Or your reflection, staring at you with your own smarting eyes
I see nothing
nothing at all when I look into your empty empty eyes
Empty like a thousand things never said
Empty like the drawer with all your notes that I've never sent
I re-read them everyday, reading between the lines
have to see what went wrong
you said it was right
The shadow is the most beautiful thing in the word
A million shadows in the beautiful cul-da-sacs of light shifting into the darkness and depth-
a thousand words that I should have said-
I mull over them everday
roll them over until they are smooth as silk in my sticky mind
I would change it all
change every syllable that i mashed together to become a hurtful word
I would change it all
every thought that crossed through my horrible mind
How irreversably changed my life has become
I cannot make anything differnt
yet, everything is staying the same
The mirror is shattered
and it lies in a thousand broken peices on my floor
and I cannot glue it together
no matter how much I tried
or how many bottles I have foolishly wasted
it spills to the side and lies on the floor
