Yesterday I cut myself
I couldn't take the pain.
Now I am a hypocrite
Cause I made my friends promise never to do it again.
Every time he tells me that I\'m an angel
All it does is bring me so much sorrow
I was told I can't walk back wards into yesterday
I have to walk for wards into tomorrow.
But he's everything I want
And he's everything I need
Could he ever understand
That now inside I bleed
I scream
I break.
And I can't find my way.
Will it be better today?
He has a girlfriend
And lives four hours from me
And that girlfriend
Is who I want to be.
I don't even know her.
DOES ANYBODY UNDERSTAND
What I'm going through?
If you do then please,
I need to talk to you.
It seemed like everything was going right
I found all my paths,
I got back my life.
But then I met him
And now I am a mess
Tripping over myself
There's only one path I can see
Where
Are all the rest?
I only walk my path of broken heart
Of first desired love
Of hopelessness.
I know what it's like
Now to Fall in love
He is my first
He's what I dream of.
He told me things
I never thought I'd hear
He said he might not make it,
Not seeing me for a year.
I want to see him
Every time
I open my eyes.
I want to hear him
As soon as I wake up in the morning
I want to be near him.
He said
He could never stop thinking about me
I bet he already has.
Cuz he went home to his girlfriend
You know, the one I want to be.
And now I realize
He's with her all the time
All of my dreams have been broken and stepped on
I don't know what I think anymore
I thought that I was in love before,
But then I felt this
This desperation
This obsession
.
He's the first thing I think of when I open my eyes
When I wake up in the morning after night.
I wake up crying
If I dream about him.
What is this feeling?
Why did it have to find me?
I thought if I cut
It would all go away
But now I just dread
Each moment, Each day.
