Sounding Out Heartache

There's a mumbling growing through the walls
That almost sounds like another sadistic voice
One dredged from my most horrid nightmares
A reminder of what makes my life such agony

There are so many familiar whispers
Making the sanity scream inside my head
Reassuring me of my countless endless flaws
Just their hatred, disembodied by my past

There's one for every impossible regret
For every betrayed friend and lost love
They laugh and taunt me on the inside of my ears
As saline slips down my eyes and onto my pillow

I've tried to tell them that I've done my best
That everything gone wrong isn't because of my heart
But they know my guilt and my injured conscience
And they know it all started because of you

Beneath my eyes I can see your amazing smile
That made me never want to fall into sleep
Because I was living a reality better than any dream
Before your voice was the one slowly killing me

I see the things I used to do to you
That broke your heart and betrayed my own
As your voice rings out the same hurt sounds
That resemble the words of a wounded soul

My tears feel like blood from my sore eyes
Wishing that I could take back what I did
As the tune of the angry sound-off in my head
Knows I'll never forget how much I've destroyed

I pour a glass of wine for my bruised heart strings
And another for the starry November night
A star for every voice that I once loved
That now haunts me for what I had become

I stare into my chilled crimson drink
Trying so hard to silence the thinking mockery
I see my precious moon in my sky of regret
A shining white portal to my forgotten sanity

I sip in the cold and hear the most painful voice
Always the one that speaks the honest truth
A voice that once cherished all your secrets
The voice that killed my life with you

A voice that sounds just like mine
Broken and tortured and fake
The voice that always screams inside
Coming from the lips you kissed good bye

~~I don't know how I came up with this one... Long but I still hope you like it!~~