Nights Grow Longer...

The sleepless nights,
The dwelling thoughts,
Poisening my mind,
Creating new plots,

I never stop thinking,
Although I wish I would,
Ideas flashing through my mind,
Not ideas that should,

The wholes getting deeper,
Drowning out all reasonable thought,
Taking stealing,
All good I've been taught,

Still going down,
Darkness surrounds,
Breathing is harsh,
My heartbeat is slowing,

I plead to the heavens,
Not here, Not now,
I find the bottom,
Though I can't see the top,
For once more I am falling,
I see no-one,
Though as always their calling,

Now there is silence,
The calling has stopped,
All I have left,
Are my lonely thoughts,

Where are the people,
I had considered them friends,
Now I am running,
Calling their names,
I see their pictures,
But I see only frames,

No, I shout,
I must carry on,
They don't matter I think,
It was all a con,

I'm on my own now,
As I've always been,
Thinking and searching,
Though dreading the end,

I'm climbing now,
Though I don't think I'll make it,
All the love they shared,
Just to turn back and take it,

Betrayed and lost,
Are all that I feel,
My whole life I've begged,
My whole life I've knealed.....