One last attempt for amnesia

Sorry, October was just
never my month.
i tried to fix things
but i didn't try hard enough.

too many beginnings
that ended too soon.
too many endings
that began when we didn't want them to.

he cheated.
she lied.
they decided
to try

one last attempt
for amnesia.
one last effort
to forget him.

one last endeavor
for both hearts to unbreak.
one last stab
at survival.

and if this last shot
that we have for normality
doesn't work out
as we've planned--

then God, dear God
please help me
take this gun
out of these hands.