Last Time Ill Cry

It’s a beautiful afternoon, I’ll cry today
My wish for my parents to be away
From each other, from me, doesn’t matter
Whatever the choice, I’ll take the latter

This heart of mine sinks more than once each day
This impossible wish, but still I pray
Maybe there’s a chance they’ll love each other again
Impossible still, the rules can’t be bent
As I stand in the corner, I watch the fight
The candle’s been blown, there is no light

He pulls her hair and bangs her against the wall
But I did nothing at all
He despises her and wished for her to die
She was weak and was left to cry
He swears and blames all the fault on her
From that, now I was sure

The violence, the words, they hurt a lot
The foundation of this marriage was left to rot
The past is the past, but I don’t forget
So easily, I’m more bitter and forcefully regret
My parents mistakes, I was kept in the dark
I was finally told, from finish to start

I hold on to my feelings which I try to change
But all I do is cry away the pain
It feels so lonely to be in this place
But my mom needs me just in case
My dad gets too angry and acts on his words
I’ll hate myself if my mom gets hurt

My emotions, though painful, I keep it inside
It’s hard for me to trust, so my choice is to hide
They’ll listen but forget either that or they won’t care
If that’s the consequence, then why should I dare?
But going through this alone, it’s hard too
I really don’t know what to do

This is my home, but I hate it a lot
My joy, my happiness shot
I want to escape and leave my stress
To the wind, blow away this mess
My head hurts from thinking my feelings sinking
Hum a sad tune, I’ll be the one singing

Someday this’ll all be resolved
My mom and dad won’t be involved
Anymore, I prefer them apart then together
I’ll be happier, they’ll go on better
This thought keeps me smiling, it relieves my pain
Maybe tomorrow, nothing will be the same

So the last time I’ll cry, they’ll be apart
We’ll make a brand new start
Each day we’ll improve and go on
Slowly, we’ll invigorate our bond
So the last time I’ll cry, I know we’ve diminished
The last time I’ll cry, our family will be finished.