Thin Line Between Life And Death

Every night she sits alone
A solitary stranger in the tangled mess of her mind
She doesn’t know where she belongs or where she’ll end up
She’s worthless no one really cares about her she always tells herself
Her only friend, the knife
The only friend that can hurt her as much as herself
It’s her savior to reality
Her home away from home
Her pain inflicting shining friend
This girl will live with no food for days
Smiling at what she has done
Measuring up her ability to live
Her sanity withering away
To just a faint mist in the ever growing darkness
The stars do their best to console her
Singing her too sleep and telling her there really is someone out there
Someone that will love her forever and for always
For they have seen him
They know him well
She goes to sleep
It’s her savior from reality
Her home away from home
It’s there she lives in the past
Recalling memories from so long ago
Stuck and willing to leave
They haunt her telling her things she should have done things she shouldn’t have
Her soul and body separate
Floating silently somewhere above her shoulder
Going through life as an aimless shell
This girl goes on day after day
Repeats her over used schedule
Fingers curling around her friend
Her friend that mocks
Tears will stream down her face
Her hand forcing itself downward
Ripping apart the innocent flesh
She sighs in relief, sighs in pain, sighs in cruelty
She knows what she has done
Just doesn’t know the fine invisible line she has passed
The thin line between life and death
For today she has pressed and twisted too hard
Not knowing not even really seeing
The ruby red blood flows in a river
Running down her arm and staining her bedsheets
Everything is leaving her now
She feels it as she closes her icy blue eyes
Her heart beat lessens with every breath
For this girl is now gone
Flying where she dared not fly before
If only someone had told her they loved her
Before the world had come to this
For he was out there
She just never knew
I know this girl
And I think you do to
She is you and she is me